“By the way, I bought you a book today,” Ryan handed Roy the book.
I like the song “Missing You” by All Time Low. It’s about mental health. The lyrics address some issues relating to it.
The first words are, “I heard that you’ve been self-medicating in the quiet of your room, your sweet suburban tomb.” This is the first time I find a song that talks about self medication. Attention everyone, this is important: psychotherapy is not a joke. The medicine for patients with psychiatry condition is not like paracetamol that you can just buy without prescription and you’ll be okay. If you want psychiatric medication, see a psychiatrist.
I like the lines,
“You’ve come this far,
you’re all cleaned up,
you made a mess again,
there’s no more trying,
time to sort yourself out…”
Those lines talk about recovery and relapse. For those who experience this, I believe you can go through this, even when it seems impossible.
I’m also impressed with the line, “Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one.” That line describes the journey with mental health: it’s not always easy, it’s wild, but as always, we can pass it.
And come the lines with strange power,
“Grit your teeth, and pull your hair,
paint the walls black, and scream, ‘Fuck the world,
’cause it’s my life, I’m gonna take it back,’
and never for a second blame yourself.”
I really like the part, “…. it’s my life, I’m gonna take it back,” because damn, it reminds me that no matter the circumstance, I have the power to take my life back and have control over it.
There are still some parts of the lyrics that I haven’t mentioned in this post. Another post, maybe?
I guess someday if I have to explain about mental health, I would also recommend this song because why not, this song is well written and it talks about important issue.
The prompt today is “jangle“. I didn’t know the meaning so I looked up Oxford dictionary online. They also give sentence example, “Ryan stood on the terrace jangling his keys.” So I think I would just continue that sentence.
Ryan stood on the terrace jangling his keys. He was just home after wandering around the bookstore to find a book for his little brother, Roy. Talking about Roy, Ryan saw his brother’s motorcycle was still parked and the doors and windows were all still closed. “That satan hasn’t woken up yet,” Ryan thought to himself.
He came into the house and shout, “Roy, wake up! It’s 11 already,” then heard the answer, “It’s Sunday!”
“By the way, I got a missed call from Don. What’s up? Do you two have problem?” Ryan asked.
“Why would Don call you?” Roy responded while gaining his consciousness.
The characters Roy and Don are taken from the ongoing series on Wattpad, Children of Altar. It’s written by my friend. Check that out and give feedback.
Also, I don’t really know about sibling relationship and in real life I don’t know any of my friends’ siblings personally so I have no idea how to continue my story above. What would make someone call their friend’s brother? What can make you trust your friend so you give them your brother’s contact number?
By the way, did I just make a fanfic with original character? Hahaha…
I see that many people post about friendship between Hufflepuff and Slytherin. Here I want to share my experience because I’m a Hufflepuff and my friend Lady Slytherin is, obviously a Slytherin.
Hufflepuff gets this reputation of being kind and loyal, even adorable. Slytherin, on the other hand, has the stereotype of being ambitious and evil. However, Lady Slytherin and I don’t fit that stereotype. She’s a sweet yet sarcastic Slytherin while I’m a troubled yet hilarious Hufflepuff. We also have different MBTI; she’s INTJ, I’m ISFP.
Our friendship consists of:
- Hufflepuff shares weird thing that she finds on the internet
- Slytherin has various reaction to that weird thing: “hahaha”, “what the hell”, “aaaarrrghh”, etc
- oh wait, Slytherin also shares weird thing
- we both can relate to Sirius Black’s scene, “I did my waiting” because that would be our reaction when we finally become doctor
- we have only one mutual fandom: Harry Potter
- we respect each other’s fandom but constantly compare them: she likes Tolkien’s works, while I like A Song of Ice and Fire by George. R. R. Martin (Hufflepuff isn’t always about cute story, you know)
- Hufflepuff is that emo kid who still plays songs by My Chemical Romance
- Slytherin is not really into bandom
- our conversation starts with normal everyday thing but ends up with something absurd
- usually I’m the one who makes the convo absurd
- Hufflepuff relationship advice consists of: fiction book and some weird things from the internet (if you don’t get it, it’s all right)
- Slytherin is more mature when it comes to relationship advice: give and take should be balanced, you should love yourself first, etc
- still, we both don’t really have good luck in relationship (being single for too long time and spending too much time with fictional characters, duh)
- but if someday Lady Slytherin finds someone, I’m ready to ship them, they would be my OTP
- and if someday I find someone, she would be surprised first because I’m not always that interested in relationship, not even fictional relationship
- anyway, we love bookstore; we can just go to the bookstore trying the quill (kidding) or pen then feel happy
- or just look at the book covers and make joke about them
- or give each other book recommendation
- or give each other encouragement to buy book like, “Buy this Game of Thrones novel! You want it, right?”
Yesterday, I read a blog post by Joel Sorin entitled “Sail“. That post mentioned Irn-Bru which, after I searched in the internet, is actually a Scottish soft drink. Then I remember something else: dandelion and burdock. How can people come up with good idea to name beverage?
I first heard “dandelion and burdock” from the song “Suck It and See” by Arctic Monkeys. You can watch the official music video, or if you think that video is too sexy then you can watch Alex Turner perform the song in acoustic version, which is also sexy for some people.
The song also has amazing lyrics. I like the lines, “That’s not a skirt girl, that’s a sawn-off shotgun. And I can only hope you’ve got it aimed at me.” Usually I don’t like lyrics with such “dangerous vibe” but those words are well-arranged and unexpected. I just can’t hate it.
Anyway, suck it and see means to try something you have not done before. When was the last time you tried something new? Was it a great deal that you had to pluck up courage? Or was it something simple that you did on impulse?
Asking that question, I then remember myself that I haven’t done anything new recently. Well, I did try to wear matte orange lipstick last Saturday if that counts.
I guess I’ll try to do something new again this Saturday. But what?
The prompt today is sail and considering that I don’t have proper knowledge about ship and sailing, I will just write about figurative ship: household.
In Indonesian language there is term “bahtera rumah tangga”. Bahtera means ship, rumah tangga means household. If you understand Indonesian language, you can read this article about the etymology of the phrase.
Usually people use the word “kapal” in Indonesian to talk about the watercraft. The word “bahtera” is rarely used in everyday conversation when you talk about water transportation. So why do we use the word “bahtera” when it comes to figurative ship called household?
The word “kapal” is derived from Tamil word “kappal”. The word “bahtera” is derived from the word “bahitra” in old Javanese, which is a loanword from from Sanskirt word “vahitra”. According to the article I link above, the word “bahtera” is used when talking about figurative ship because Sankirt is used as ritual language so it has more spiritual feeling.
So it is said that being a family and creating household is like being in the same ship. You have to work together so the ship can sail safely. I can’t explain further about it because, like a fan whose ship isn’t canon, my ship hasn’t sailed yet.
Maybe I should enjoy the harbour while getting my ship ready. Then we’ll sail (though I don’t know yet whom this “we” refer to).
Some songs can put into certain mood or make you imagine things. This time I want to talk about the song Bulletproof Heart by My Chemical Romance.
That song cheers me up. However it does more than just cheering up. Everytime I listen to that song, I imagine my girl friend and I run while laughing after doing silly thing. We dash to avoid people shouting at us.
Beside, that song is indeed about run away. As Gerard Way said before performing that song in Hurricane festival 2011, “There’s nothing wrong with running and never looking back.” I have mixed feeling about what Gerard Way said. The idea of running away sounds good but doesn’t sound right to me. No matter how bad my situation is, I don’t think it’s so bad that I need to run away. I’m not that easy to leave something, either. I don’t even leave an abandoned group chat, duh.
Then I think maybe that “Bulletproof Heart” song is not for me. That song is for people who feel trapped in bad place or bad condition. That song is for people who are stuck with bad people. It’s for those who fight their own demons, or with their dark past. For those kind of people, running away is necessary. It even takes certain kind or courage for them to run away from their situation and save themselves.
Maybe someday that song will mean more than two girls running away after doing silly things. Who knows?
Being a co-assistant in hospital is exhausting and when I’m exhausted, I lose motivation to do things. I can’t even bring myself to review material. It’s also difficult for me to stay awake during lecture (yes, we still have lecture in hospital). I envy my friend who can stay awake during lecture and understand the material. They even have enough energy to discuss it with the residents. Seriously, those friends have no idea how lucky they are.
I often have a lot of idea in my head for my blog post but I don’t write the post right away. I usually make a list of “blog post idea” so that if I have the chance to write something, I will write from that list.