I’m not comfortable in front of people. Never.
When I was at school, public speaking was not a big problem. I could present a subject or tell a story in front of class quite easily. I even joined speech or story telling contests.
Since I become medical student, my self confidence decreases. Public speaking is scary now. I don’t know why. Perhaps because being medical student, I’m taught to do everything correctly and properly so I’m afraid of making mistake. Thus, I become more self conscious.
What actually causes stage fright? I watch TED-Ed video that explains it. The video says that we humans perceive public speaking as a threat for our reputation. That perception is a reaction from fight-or-flight response. Fight-or-flight response is a primitive reaction that occurs in dangerous situation so you can decide whether to flight and save your life or fight to death. In short, it’s just a public speaking, but our primitive mind consider it life-threatening.
I guess my brain perceives medical school as a jungle with beasts and monsters in it. Thanks medical school, you succesfully activate my primitive mind, a little bit too much. Now teach me to be the strongest beast.